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Maladie by Shiroho-Art Maladie by Shiroho-Art
Well, i got to confess the hardest part was to take the decision to make this art.
If someone didn't recently psy me and told me i should do it, i would probably never have the will to draw my disease representation.
This fucking bitch took me around 6 years of my life now. So i can barely look at it most of times. Im really glad to be finished with this paint.
"Maladie" means in french a condition, a sickness/illness or a disease. And i call it like that when i speak about it.

You may think there are lot of reference merged in there, but i did put each thing for a specific purpose. I could have let you guess but here is how i imagined it.

- The perfusion perch Maladie is holding : Maladie is aiming and empaling me for its location (my kidnees and digestive system).
- Perfusion linking : The treatment i recieve is linked to both me and "Maladie". It may hurt Maladie and help me to get better, but sometimes clearly the opposite.
- Maladie's closed eyes : I think diseases are blind, whether your wealth, your race, your karma, your actions. Sometimes you are not deserving that shit and that's the most infuriating.
- Maladie's mouths : Its hunger got no limits, never think the worst part is when you are just hit. Maladie could and will take you everything if you are not fighting.
- Multiple faces : Cliche but noneless very true, a serious disease got many faces : Physical injuries, and biology sure but let's not forget mental injuries (traumas), strengh loss, body becoming weaker, able to do less stuff, moral & psychology destroyed, your will disapearing, your dreams sliping away, your self-confidence toward daily stuff, your closest people doubting you, you social circle collapsing, your future becoming a thick fog.
- Some suffering faces : The ugly expressions of these remember me my worst crises... Inbelievable amounts of pain. There are actually my worst fear in life... see them again.
- Some stitches to graft one and other limb : A severe illness is complete and strongly balanced when all its side effects reached you (kinda the same meaning as the multiple faces).
- A laughing face : Sometimes it was so rough i felt like it was a joke, like if something was planning this in the shadow and mocking of everything that was snatched to me.
- Unhealthy anatomy : well that's logic
- Long proportion, multiple limbs, multiple tongues : Disease can grab you anywhere you are, you won't going out of it easily.
- Crown and Perch Scepter-like : Maladie is the one that rule in our couple, in my life. Like a king on his subject.
- Hourglass with blood instead of sand : The death is never too far, I often got the feeling a clock is running, my life being sucked way faster than healthy people.
- Jewelry : It is a true fact i tossed so many money on that bitch already. i could have easily bought the last stereo surround setup i always dreamt about and a new car.
- Medication & drugs : I consumed so much for it in the 6 past years. you got no choice and it's really sad to ingest all these chemicals when you think about it. You end to fear that much but let's be clear you cannot pass on them if you wanna keep living in a decent way.
- Teeth & bones hanged at its belt : There are its trophies, i often think to those who already passed because of it. In french there is an expression to say you got dead trampled by something "you lost your teeth here"
- The pillow it is sat on : She is perfectly comfy with the actual situation, i am definitly not.
- The chain Maladie is fermely holding linked to my hand : It forbid me every day to do what i want, mostly drawing like i would.
- I am drawing this art : Loop stuff, to put you in my spot, actually to initiate an empathy feeling
- The place where i and Maladie stand : there is nothing here but me and Maladie, no one to help, no one to be hear, and the horizon seems empty

Please keep in mind i really don't wanna brag about "a cool art" showing off my "badass illness" and complain about how much rain is on me.
I just wanted to express some hard feelings i daily barely let go. I know i am far to be alone, more than that this is threatening everyone of us at some point of our lives.
This picture is not exagerated and i thought may be if i could hit some people with its violence...They will possibly keep in mind that these crazy shit really exists out there, that they got plenty faces and that's why we need to spread around us the more love we can.

Sorry for the long talk

(Blood minimized to avoid mature content)
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StellarNear Featured By Owner Edited Jan 21, 2016
Genkidama pour toi mon cher \o/ un jour tout ca sera loin derrière et t'aura rendu plus fort je n'en doute point, tu surpasseras tout ca.
Tu lui arracheras sa fichue couronne de force et il n'aura plus aucune emprise sur toi.
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
haha bien dit ! J'espère un jour...
J'ai bien aimé la façon dont t'a repris ma métaphore : p 
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Lord-of-the-Omens Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2015
I created a creature with a head exactly the same as your demon here back when I was 18.
The caption I put above the drawing was, "Passion." Maybe I'll direct your attention toward it if I can find it in my old pile.
Funny how my illnesses struck one by one over the years, growing stronger the more I fed them.

Looks like your primary illness is gluttony. This doesn't mean literally for food.
A lust for power (the demon gives us our power for a price... its inhabitance. Power for power). Many artists have this, it's what drives us to be better (if we're stupid).
We can't stop feeding our minds with new content, because we don't feel satisfied with what we already know (we need many mouths to consume the content and many arms to use what we have).
Yet, the problem is deeper. It was passed down from prior generations, like many problems, stacked like pancakes (you expressed that in how the image is compounded through you drawing the creature and yourself, and yourself in the drawing, drawing itself and the creature, again and again, deeper and deeper).
The demon is an extension of ourselves. Our negative energy manifests into its own being. Our evil twin.

We have to deal with these demons properly, and there is only one way to kill the demon. Love.
God is how I am fighting; he fights for me. I doubt you will find any other way that "truly" works.

It's a beautiful expression of your pain, but at what price? The pain is not who we are, the pain is what we are slaved to. Love (God) breaks the chains.
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Wen-JR Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
çà fait mal à voir mais tu fait bien de faire sortir çà sur une image, parfois çà aide... j'espère que çà finira par s'arranger, courage :)
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
Merci Wen ! ça fait une paye ; ) mais je continue de suivre et aime toujours ce que tu fais !
J'espère que tout va bien de ton coté ! Peace !
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Wen-JR Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
ha bah çà me fait bien plaisir de savoir çà :D et désolé si j'ai pas fait grand chose de nouveau ^^ çà devrais changer d'ici peu, je vais bien enfin du temps pour recommencer à faire des images :D
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
tkt je suis bien placé pour comprendre, j'ai eu un coup de mou ces derniers temps... ya eu aussi un projet pro qui na pas marché, ça ma fait dla peine sans compter tout le boulot de "paumé"... Du coup pareil j'ai pas produit masse depuis longtemps, faut que jreprenne un second souffle maintenant. J'ai hate de voir ça pour toi ^^
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MithrilRoshi Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Very cool art, and I hope it got a lot of things off your chest man. Good luck ^^
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you MithrilRoshi ^^ take care
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arkangesaga Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015
En effet c'est très parlant, bravo pour ton illustration de cette partie de toi. 

Courage :)
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Merci ! >  <
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TataneSoft Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Il a du te falloir du courage pour en venir à bout de cette illu'.
Le texte avec les références/détails est très cohérent et bien expliqué, et pour ce qui est du dessin je le trouve très bien réalisé, et fait bien passer cette vision d'un truc moche, pesant et prenant souvent le dessus.

Respect.
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Merci TataneSoft ! Ouais j'ai mis plus de temps a me lancer dessus qu'a le faire entièrement lol, j'ai du passer 1 semaine et demi a hésiter et jeter des brouillon a la corbeille. Quant aux idées/significations/détails c'était le fruit d'une lente improvisation. J'avais une vision bcp trop floue du bordel qd j'ai commencé et j'aurais jamais pu avoir toutes ces idées dès le départ.
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TataneSoft Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Ben en tout cas ça se sent que c'est une œuvre réfléchie ^^

En tout cas j'espère qu'elle t'en fait pas trop baver IRL...
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
Tous les jours ^^ mais c'est mieux qu'au début il y a 6 ans, c'est l'essentiel
Car avoir quelque chose de grave, qui ne s'arrange pas avec le temps j'imagine pas T .T
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junior2729 Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2015
beautiful art, the detailed explanation made me really into this picture in some way... i felt really touched by it.
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks mate ^^ glad to hear i touched at least few people !
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Teoma-The-Naraotor Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2015  Student General Artist
Just praying for you man and have just this virtual hug as all my support to you :hug: prend soins de toi et courage :(
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks a Lot Teoma-The-Naraotor  ! Bon courage a toi aussi car on a tous nos emmerdes et on en a tous besoin haha ! take care !
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Teoma-The-Naraotor Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015  Student General Artist
Pas de problème et merci également :hug:
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MoonlitCrescent Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2015
Wow.
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for that first comment MoolitCrescent : D
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MoonlitCrescent Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015
MOOlitcrescent? xD\

No problem, clearly you've put a ton of work and thought into this.
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
lol sorry didn mean that Moon offc ! thanks again
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MoonlitCrescent Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015
Hahahaha no worries at all, mate ^^

I must admit that I did find it curious that your explanations did not actually meantion what you 'Maladie' / Illness actually is, but that's up to you. :)
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Shiroho-Art Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
whether the disease is, even a deadly one, i learnt the hard way it's always worse when you tell the name to people.
It avoid some really annoying/hurting stuffs i won't debate here because it's really complexe when you know it only if you live it, hearing someone talk about your stuff, trying to understand, giving you advises or else.
Ofc people try to make some kind move i get it. but you have no idea how it hurts when they think find solution are that simple, becauce you already steped this way long time ago and you were deeply disapointed
I may lost you with these last words but i know what i am talking about xD if someone with a serious health pbm doesn't share you totally the details don't be surprised, simply give empathy it's the best way to comfort
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MoonlitCrescent Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2016
I agree with a lot of people, but not ALL people. I believe I would be one such person.
I understand that and what it must be like. I've more than a few ways I can relate to that.
No you haven't lost me, believe me I genuinely do know. If you would want to share anything more I am happy to listen and discuss just about anything with you. I've never had a problem when it comes to empathy. :)
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